Pretty pretty girl... 1/24/2002

pretty pretty girl, lovely lovely girl
spin my world around
got my world turning
(say the neon lights are bright on broadway)
pretty pretty girl, lovely lovely girl
spin my world around
got my world turning
(one and only carter on the drums)
pretty pretty girl, lovely lovely girl
spin my world around
got my world turning
(leroi moore on the saxaphone)
pretty pretty girl, lovely lovely girl
spin my world around
got my world turning
(take me to the river, the river, drop me in the water the water
pretty pretty girl, lovely lovely girl
spin my world around
got my world turning
people stare and we just ignore
and we just ignore everything
people stare and we just ignore
oh babe....
sorry, that would only make sense to people who listen to live DMB. that's from 9-28-94, aka the UTTAD release party. good show, get it if you don't have it, but not from me - mp3 only.

finals are nearing completion. and as they do, i realize that erin cook never said thank you for her xmas present. i went out of my way to take it to her at her house so she could take it to japan, and she nver said thanks. and she came backa and never even mentioned it. what a dope i was to think that she was cool. she's not.

derek and i talked tonight, about the girl he likes, and about how difficult/easy it would be to run an opendiary/livjournal type server once i get to school... according to him not very, so you may see ODstc running when i get down there. that would be cool, imho.

but it's late, and i have finals in 7 hours (yay calc *sarcasm*) so i'm not going to write what i really should be writing about, which is the conversation between theredhead and i (completely unrelated to the last 6 entries or so). -crs

i guess it's cool to be alone 1/24/2002

will ya never rest
fighting the battle of who could care less
every day you wake up late...
sometimes i wish i was
that way
you think rockford files is cool
but there are something you would change if it were up
so think about your masterpiece
watch the rockford files
call and see if paul can score some weed.


I love that song. actually, i like a lot of ben folds five. but that one reminds me of so long ago.


anyway, what i've been thinking about today is this: why did she lie to me? why couldn't she tell me, or anyone else for that matter, the truth? does she not trust me? can she not believe me? i can even understand if she would choose to not mention him - lying through omission is a preferred sin of mine. but she brought him up. she brought up how her parents always thought they were going out or something - and she acted like that could never happen. but why would she do that? if she liked him... why would she specifically bring him up to me, a person that doesn't know him, in order to point out that she didn't like him... when she really did? that just doesn't make sense to me! that's not a normal thing! it shouldn't be! i thought she could trust me - i know i'd put my life in her hands if it was asked of me. but apparently that doesn't go both ways. now i just don't know what i'm supposed to think. i think i am going to email the letter i wrote to katrag. i probably shouldn't - it was written when i had just finished physics final, and i was pissed.

damnit, gotta pick up dave. hopefully i'll write another when i get back. later.

Cut my life into pieces 1/24/2002

this is my last resort.
I thought i was doing well. but tonight i called her house, and she's not there. now, the only time she's gone out... well, in a long time, afaik, is with me. And so, being the invasive, nosy, and stupid person that i am... i called his house.
Guess who wasn't home?

So, i'm sitting at home. talking to potheadderek, wishing theredhead was home, and now talking to katherine. katherine is helping - but i think i have her unjustly on my side. because she doesn't get to hear the other side - and she's agreeing all with me. that's not fair to ET. but it's making me feel better.
Finals are over. thank god. i appreciate everything.
more later. -crs