Lent

I am giving up self-depreciation for lent.

For the next 40 days, I will not say anything bad about myself. Except on sundays. Sundays are exempt from lenten things. I bet you didn't know that.

In the past I've tried to give up a lot of things: giving up the internet, giving up soda. Giving up AIM, etc. etc. I've tried being better about a lot of things. But in this case, I really want to succeed. I know I'm a good person, I know I try my damndest, and there's very little I do that actually requires self-deprceiation. Everything is so much better if I just look at things logically, and not with my emotions.

So, I'm going to not insult myself, be deragatory towards myself, or say anything that might be considered untrue about myself in a negative manner.

I'm hoping I do well.

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In light of my goal, I'm going to write something that I'm good at every morning for the next 40 days. That way, any time I'm not feeling like I'm a fairly good guy, I'll just think back to one of the things I wrote. However, by default, this will make me sound very far from the person I generally try to be. I am generally fairly modest, which is where some of my defeatism comes from.

I follow these tactics due to the fact that when I was younger, I was often told that I just needed to be quiet. In school especially, the fact that I was good at things was kind of overlooked and everyone just kind of decided to ignore me. So, I stopped acting smart. I still have a tendancy to pipe in and be told I'm unappreciated: My chemistry teacher told me I needed to "shut up" one day in class because I pointed out an error in his calculation on the board.

Anyway. These posts won't be modest. I'll be picking something out and talking about how good I am at it. If you don't mind reading that kind of thing, feel free to opt-in on the filter, but if you do mind, then I'd suggest you to move on. Putting a poll behind an LJ-cut, or you can just comment. Thanks!
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On another note, my journal is now using the forum style I've been using on my friends page for months. Took me a while to figure out FRIENDS_EVENTS doesn't have an equivilant in LASTN, which was fucking things up pretty bad. ;)

Off to dinner!