should i stay or should i go? 1/28/2002

[crschmidt]

i don't know. that's all i want to know - can she stand being in the same room with me? i mean, i doubt she cares anymore. i'm a write off. but i just dont' want to risk making her more mad, and i know there's a lot of work that needs to be done. i just want to walk in, get told what to do and go do it. i don't want to be around her. not if she's going to be mad. i don't want to make her mad. i never did. i screwed up, and i don't want to do it again. i tried to ask her this in the email i sent last night, but she didn't respond. she probly saw it was me and destroyed all evidence of it, seeing as how i'm such an asshole.

i knowq this is short, but i really need a nap or something before i pick up dave. maybe i'll write again at 10 or whatever. night.