I'm a mess
Jan. 25th, 2003 03:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
crschmidtI'm a mess.
This is really no surprise to most of you who know me, most likely, because my life is often a mess. But I'm looking at things that I should do, and realizing how much I should do that haven't.
The feed readership is normally posted on Saturday, and the new feed thing that brad has doesn't have the info I need in the way I need it. I need to email him and ask him to change it, but I really don't want to, because I feel bad doing so. I could even write a patch to do it, but I just don't want to give it to him.
My homework situation is a disaster already. I have a physics pre-lab I need to get done, a bunch of Japenese reading to catch up on, plus doing random other stuff, and I haven't done any of it.
I feel dirty. I've been trying to keep myself clean, but it's not working. I LOOK like a mess.
Tonight, I watched two movies with Christy and talked to her for a long time. We had a lot to talk about.
I'm tired, but that's mostly because I haven't been sleeping enough. I've gotten that problem back where I only sleep 9 hours, no matter when I go to bed.
I think I'm going to try and be very productive tomorrow, which may mean staying off AIM. I'm definitely NOT going to log into IRC (as much as I want to) and I'm also going to try to go back and clean up/fix all the patches I've coded in Zilla sometime this weekend.
I'm not sure if I'm feeling overworked because I have too much work, or just because I want too much free time. Either way, I dont' feel comfortable with the number of things I have to do versus the number of things I've gotten done.
Big supporty debates today in the journals of some of my friends.
I had a good night, although I was really sad I missed Sarah. I wanted to talk to her about Stir Crazy - I've never been. I thought, since she had said she was going to bed around 10, there wasn't much chance of that, but it turned out she didn't go to bed until 11:30. I could have just watched one movie and talked to her. I don't know though, I had a great time watching movies and I think it was important to talk to Christy, but it's also really important to talk to Sarah...
*sigh* I just can't make decisions. Have fun in real life, or have fun online? That is, of course, assuming that talking to me doesn't end up making Sarah depressed. :)
This morning I woke up, and I looked over at sergio's bed, where he was sleeping with some other girl (megan?). It made me so sad to realize that I couldn't have Sarah there with me. It would be so nice to wake up, and look over and see her next to me. It would make me so happy.
I only have one sprite left. That's right, in just 5 days I drank a full case of sprite (24 cans). I'll need to get more of that.
I need to take back a lot of books to TIS tomorrow. I bought copies online, and need to return the old ones and get my money back.
My internet sucks tonight. Disconnecting from aim every 2-3 minutes, and not letting me connect to IRC (where it's normally stable) at all. Teh Suck.
Anyway, this was just random rambling about my day today. Thought somebody out there might be interested, although the more i think about it, the more I doubt it. Oh well.
G'night, all.
This is really no surprise to most of you who know me, most likely, because my life is often a mess. But I'm looking at things that I should do, and realizing how much I should do that haven't.
The feed readership is normally posted on Saturday, and the new feed thing that brad has doesn't have the info I need in the way I need it. I need to email him and ask him to change it, but I really don't want to, because I feel bad doing so. I could even write a patch to do it, but I just don't want to give it to him.
My homework situation is a disaster already. I have a physics pre-lab I need to get done, a bunch of Japenese reading to catch up on, plus doing random other stuff, and I haven't done any of it.
I feel dirty. I've been trying to keep myself clean, but it's not working. I LOOK like a mess.
Tonight, I watched two movies with Christy and talked to her for a long time. We had a lot to talk about.
I'm tired, but that's mostly because I haven't been sleeping enough. I've gotten that problem back where I only sleep 9 hours, no matter when I go to bed.
I think I'm going to try and be very productive tomorrow, which may mean staying off AIM. I'm definitely NOT going to log into IRC (as much as I want to) and I'm also going to try to go back and clean up/fix all the patches I've coded in Zilla sometime this weekend.
I'm not sure if I'm feeling overworked because I have too much work, or just because I want too much free time. Either way, I dont' feel comfortable with the number of things I have to do versus the number of things I've gotten done.
Big supporty debates today in the journals of some of my friends.
I had a good night, although I was really sad I missed Sarah. I wanted to talk to her about Stir Crazy - I've never been. I thought, since she had said she was going to bed around 10, there wasn't much chance of that, but it turned out she didn't go to bed until 11:30. I could have just watched one movie and talked to her. I don't know though, I had a great time watching movies and I think it was important to talk to Christy, but it's also really important to talk to Sarah...
*sigh* I just can't make decisions. Have fun in real life, or have fun online? That is, of course, assuming that talking to me doesn't end up making Sarah depressed. :)
This morning I woke up, and I looked over at sergio's bed, where he was sleeping with some other girl (megan?). It made me so sad to realize that I couldn't have Sarah there with me. It would be so nice to wake up, and look over and see her next to me. It would make me so happy.
I only have one sprite left. That's right, in just 5 days I drank a full case of sprite (24 cans). I'll need to get more of that.
I need to take back a lot of books to TIS tomorrow. I bought copies online, and need to return the old ones and get my money back.
My internet sucks tonight. Disconnecting from aim every 2-3 minutes, and not letting me connect to IRC (where it's normally stable) at all. Teh Suck.
Anyway, this was just random rambling about my day today. Thought somebody out there might be interested, although the more i think about it, the more I doubt it. Oh well.
G'night, all.